Elegy: Ideal Gases

Before I entrust these words upon you,

There's a vow you need to take,

Coz' once the dust settles,

Excuses are naught to be made.

After all to me,

Words maketh the man,

Sometimes we're called animals,

Coz' we have instincts,

But the other animals,

Show discipline& show compassion.

Yes?

Now then,

What are we?

It's your life,

You decide whatever you want to be.

But remember the right choice,

Would set you free,

Just like the gases,

We would never be,

As perfect&ideal,

But at least,

We've got common courtesy. 

21|3|2014

p/s: this was written and performed in a skit back when I was in Mansoura.

1. Contact Inhibition

Loss of contact inhibition.

This is one of the many characteristics of a Malignant neoplasm (in simpler terms Tumor or a type of Cancer).

Contact inhibition keep cells in our body in check. Imagine if you will, two cells, A and B, both growing side by side, at a steady rate. Contact inhibition help the cells to grow simultaneously without having to outgrow or encroach each other's space. When a cell experiences loss of inhibition it will outgrow it's neighbour and go out of control.

Such is the case when it comes to our lives, we always need to push each other, in a positive direction, so that we'll both grow in an appreciable manner. In certain situations, you'll see someone close improve or become better, this keeps you in check, allows you to work, make amends and improve as well.

This is the case with many great sports teams, they have a few individuals who are better than the rest, who are constantly improving and consistently performing that it'll lift those around them to do better as well. That's a characteristic that is alien to many, but whenever present it's such an invaluable asset.

It's always great to see someone close to us achieve something great, but sometimes our ego gets in the way,pries it way into your brain and tells you to hate it. Never allow that to happen, always keep it in place and use the achievement of others to help aspire ourselves to be better.

When a cell loses it's contact inhibition, it goes out of control, and that'll lead to something called Metaplasia, whereby it changes it's shape into something different, different from it's neighbouring cells. Can you imagine being one of those cells, looking at the metaplasia ridden cell, high and mighty, all coked up with success and  it has literally forget what it was once before. Never let success change who you once were, we're all self-conscious but never in a million years will we ever admit it. Don't ever lose your contact inhibition, it keeps you in place, peaceful and satisfied.  

Elegi : Aturan Leksikon

Susun gerak langkah,

Berkunjung ke kamar ingatanya,

Terkenang peristiwa,

Pabila jiwa dirayapi sepi,

Itulah insan,

Tatkala suka,

Dikuap damai dan tenang,

Singgah sang badai,

Memberi ingat,

Dalam suka,

Bertatih ke langit,

Tanpa disangka,

Petir memanah,

Oh perit!

Terhumban ke realiti,

Imaginasi kaku,

Kematian bicara,

Tiada lagi mimpi-mimpi,

Lolos ruh dari jasad ini.

Epilog: Penyakit Pelik

Aku ada satu sindrom. Satu "penyakit". Satu kelakuan pelik. 

Ini contoh senario supaya mudah faham.

Di bawah bangunan rumah aku, ada kedai runcit, kedai roti dan kedai sayur. Kebiasaan aku akan beli roti dan sayur di kedai lain sebab kedai lain kualiti dan pilihan lagi menarik.

Jadi bila aku beli roti atau sayuran dari kedai lain, aku akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk tak lalu kedai bawah rumah aku, jadi aku ambil lencongan jalan lain.

Akan timbul perasaan bersalah kalau tiba-tiba pakcik kedai roti atau sayur bawah rumah nampak aku beli barangan tapi bukan dari kedai-kedai mereka. 

Pelik kan? Dalam kebanyakan orang,aku kira reaksi pastinya "aku punya duit, aku punya suka nak beli kat mana" Tapi bukan aku.

Aku ada "penyakit". Tapi aku tak mahu sembuh darinya. I'll gladly take this as a gift, it makes me feel human. 

"Into the great wide open
Under them skies of blue
Out in the great wide open
A rebel without a clue"

Epilog : Terawih or Terawikh?

• If you're here to get an answer, than this is definitely the wrong place. But I'll let you know, it's terawih. That incessant -KH added by some never existed as far as I'm concerned.

• Teringat aku masa kecik dulu, masa ikut family terawih kat Masjid USM. Masa kecik dulu nakal, jadi masa orang solat kat depan kebiasaan budak-budak saf belakang nanti bertaburan.

• Geng kami lepak dihujung satu penjuru. Main tepuk kad, kadang main nama negeri, kadang main sepak-sepak tangan (aku tak pasti nama asal apa) dan semua jenis permainan yang percuma, tapi sangatlah berbaloi.

• Ok, tak berbaloi in terms of ponteng solat. Dan lagi kartun, kami duduk di penjuru, sakan bermain, bila Imam dah nak bagi salam, masing-masing buat saf dan bagi salam sama-sama dengan jemaah Masjid lain. Memang hantu. Haha.

• Tapi gamaknya semua dah besaq lani dan berubah jadi lebih baik, inshaAllah. 

tepuk kad. awesome!

 

Elegi : Menjelang Subuh

Kumandang sudah memecah kesunyian, 

Masih terpadam jasad bersemayam, 

Ruhnya sukar mencari jalan pulang, 

Kisah Subuh yang sudah hilang.

Pulanglah, wahai Ruh yang berkeliaran,

Agar dapatku berdepan bersama Tuhan!

Epilog: Pemergian

gambar tiada kena mengena dengan yang masih hidup atau yang telah meninggal dunia

• Pemergian seseorang selalunya merobek satu ruangan yang aneh dalam sanubari manusia.

• Kita semua benci akan perpisahan, maka amat tepat kalam yang digarap  'you never know what you got until it's gone'.

• Hargailah segalanya sebelum kita pula dihargai mereka-mereka yang bakal 'terkesima' dengan pemergian kita.